Most of the time, I am a very independent person. And
slightly excessively stubborn. So, when I set my mind to do something, I get frustrated if I can’t do it all, and have to ask for help. However, due to my new extreme roundness brought on by the growing munchkin, I am finding that I cannot quite do everything all by myself. Things like dusting the bottom shelf of the bookcase, fitting into pants with buttons, refraining from eating an entire jar of cinnamon applesauce, and climbing on chairs to change the smoke detector batteries have become very difficult.
The other night the hubs and I were hanging out on the couch, and I had just come home from teaching. It had been an observation day for performance review time, so I could not sit down at all the whole class. I was complaining to the hubs about how uncomfortable I was, and how tired my legs were, and I was just generally being a grump. I said, “I’m sorry, I’m being sort of whiny about this right now.”
To which the hubs replied, “Yeah, kind of.”
I was so upset at his lack of compassion that I tried to storm off. However, I was laying back, and couldn’t sit up, seeing as how I have a basketball for a tummy. So, the hubs had to help me roll off of the couch, so that I could then storm off. By the time I finally got upright with his help it seemed silly to be mad, so I got some chocolate from the kitchen and returned to him on the couch.
It is very humbling to not be able to sit up on one’s own. I guess I cannot do everything by myself.
Perhaps the hubs was thinking about my desire to do things for myself when he was talking in his sleep this past week. I was laying there, debating in my mind the merits of a third pillow to prop up my feet, when the hubs started talking.
Hubs: It can do it itself!
Me: Hmm, what can, Buddy?
Hubs: It can clean itself up. It really can, we just have to leave it alone.
Me: I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Hubs: The river…it will clean itself if we just let it.
Hubs: Yeah, it can do it all by itself.
Me: Ok, anything else?
Hubs: It’s good…all by itself.
He didn’t say anything else after that, and I decided to get out of bed to get another pillow, all by myself.